Hi all,
I'm french, 38 years old, Married and 2 kids (boys) and a new poster on this forum, but i've found it and followed it for about 2 years now. All this story is made in the secret, my wife rejects all sounding-like stuff.... An I have done my first cut this monday !!
Here is my (long) story, followed by some pics
Sorry if some words are not optimal...
I'm circumcised since 2004 (because a phimosis caused by my diabetes), and for about 1,5 years, I have difficulty to pee because an uretral stricture just below the glans.
I've tryed self sounding, in december 2016, with the help of this forum and other pictures on Internet. I loved that, but i've been limited to about 6-7 millimeters in diameter. Yes, this should be sufficient to pee correctly, but I have to force, and the stream was painful.
I have study and observed my stricture with some tubes and lights and discovered a sort of little skin, like a sphincter, wich closed my meatus, just at the limit of the glans, down from the meatus for about 1 to 1,5 cm.
I have, whith unbelievable pain, despite i was slow for the dilatation, taken an 8mm diameter plug in (the last 0,25 mm were terrible), and after a certain time, it seemed to be glued to my urethra, and at the removal, with the effort needed to remove it, there was a little blood... after that, I havent reached the 8 mm until some month later, when I decided to let some plugs in for few days (retained by sticking plaster).
I've been to a first urologist who tried a fibroscopy and let me there with a "this dilatation should suffice"...
At this time I had already seen pictures of meatotomy and loved that. I had loved that the urologist make the cut...
But I've not had a good contact with him, so I have let some time pass, and have dilated for myself with some stainless steel plugs buyed on amazon, and some other stainless steel self-made plugs (with "marine stainless steel screws " found in stores, up to 10 millimeters diameter, which I have round shaped and polished with my dremel)
After some days without dilating, the difficulty to pee had returned... so I have decided to try the meato myself, I believe that cut past this skin stricture, the will be no more problem.
So i've tryed in june 2017 the clamp & cut technique. The clamp was painful, and also a lot after I removed the clamp, despite the 3 levels of locking for the pressure, the skin was not transparent... There was the end of the time I have this day to try in secret, so I leaved my glans intact. there was about 1 day of large pain while the skin went again in place, and a little clamped region has taken 2-3 more days to "inflate" again.
At this time, I've decided to try to take some plugs for a long moment, and almost rapidly reached 10 millimiters in diameter, the urethra growed very rapidly when forced to dilate for some days at just before the max diameter. I have make jumps of 2 mm diameter with basically no pain. then I reached 12 mm diamter, and let my 11,8 mm hollow plug on for 3-4 weeks, night and day, in the hollidays.
I've have reached the possibility to put my little finger in to the first knuckle. That was a revelation !
After a certain time, I have reached 14 mm with a plastic "reservoir" from my insulin pump. when it was loose after another certain time, a hegar sound of 15mm, and after again, for a few days, the 16 mm went in ! (just a few centimeters, because the dilators/plugs that I can take for some days ars in stainless steel, and therefore are solid, not flexible, and painfull to wear for everyday if they are more than few centimeters long, so the urethra has grown only at the top...)
But I have dilated with hegar sounds and toothbrush, and reached about 10 cm length (the base of my penis) with the 12mm hegar and 8 cm lenght with the 13mm hegar. (the 11 mm pass all the way in) I've also reached the second knuckle of my little finger ! This is incredible and let me dream again for the meato...
I have also tryed to make my own silicone sounds, but the molding is not so easy and the surface of the toys is not so soft...
For 3-4 weeks ago, I've been tired to wear all the time a plug, so I stopped. After 4-5 days, I cant take the 15mm hegar anymore, and after 4-5 more days, I have feel a difficulty to urinate, althought my 12mm plug comes in very easy. So the idea of the meatotomy come back very strongly. I've been to another urologist, but he don't understand my problem, saying that pass a 12Fr sound is sufficient to allow to pee, and that to take any further action, it must feel a difficult to pass a 12/14 Fr...
So, after a 2-week illness (the flu for me), I've re-tempted the clamp & cut today. After taking about 1,5 hours to be able to clamp fully, with application of some drops of Xylocaine, I have meticulously sterilized the scissors, used a sterile dress and sterile gauze, washed my penis with the clamp on, then disinfected with "biseptine" (some sort of isopropyl alcohol wichs disinfect without hurt) with a cotton stick, inside and outside, the clamp still in place. Then I opened the clamp, wich sticked a little on the inside, but went easy. the skin was almost transparent, and there was no pain like 8 month before.
So i decided to take the scissors (a tiny scissor for the kid's nails, very sharp and with round tip) and to make the cut... At this time I shivered like a leaf ! This cut is not "nothing" and it is not reversible. I have not good centered the scissors for the first cut and cutted too left. then i have rectified for the rest of the cut. There was no pain at the moment, but i'va had a bit of stress because of the bleeding at the bottom of the cut. After several minutes with some gauzes, it finally stopped bleeding, and I've had the ability to spread the opening. wow ! it's amazing ! There was some pain for about 1-2 hours, I have taken an ibuprofen and also Arnica, it has helped.
I have a little "tooth" of skin on one side of my meatus, because the lack of centering. I will probably sculpt that by clamp and cut in some days, after healing.
The base of the cut is "V" shaped, I must wait some days also to see if I need to sculpt that a little or not.
Here are the photos of the clamp in place, clamp removed, cutted (after bleeding stopped) and with my 12mm plug in it to spread open, and i had the opportunity to test the 15mm end of my hegar which entered easily !
Now there is nearly no pain and no blood (just a little blood when urinating)