Calcium chloride penectomy

[straightma1e]

Thanks for the update Valcore. Love the pink toenails and your area where your cock used to be looks as if it has healed well. Your breast development pain will subside over time as the buds mature. Do you wish to lactate someday? Also what kind of vaginoplasty are you considering? Full or zero depth. I understand that a successful full depth vaginoplasty can result in orgasm from PIV massaging the prostate. Keep us updated as your body changes.

[rbm 75]

so happy its working out i always wanted a good D or even dd or ee
you worked the system i wish i could
i have read about using table salt but dont think its as pure they do make medicl grade, still thinking about it as far a sterile i am too old to worry about it still thinking about calcium
i guess your wearing bras just dont buy too many as you are going to get bigger right now i wear 2x sports bras
i use the hook and spin method as i have abad shoulder so that works for me
may i ask how is the other thing working out'
love the lastest picture

[Valcore220]

The personal life issues are hard. Found out my family hates trans people and me now. So I’ve been disowned by all my family save one cousin who is also on the outs. I’ve made good new friends in the trans community here. Still haven’t seen my kids it’s been 16 weeks and I look so different then when I saw them last it’s gonna be a shock to them.

I finished my court ordered psych eval and mostly got what was expected ptsd, depression, anxiety. However I was also diagnosed with autism spectrum disorder. I suspected lately but wasn’t sure.

It’s hard transitioning but it’s been worth it I so love myself now and if my family issues were gone I would be the happiest woman in the world.

I also got a number for a cure boy last night so I’m excited about that!

Here is a 9 month transition photo.

[rbm 75]

very nice you look great, you going to let you hair grow longer
howa re you making out with the boobs, getting bigger?
how arre you doing mentally? glad to see your happy now keep me up dated
when are you getting the rest of your surgery

[rbm 75]

i am also bi cd and have 44c boobs from hormones i go by regina on other cd and trans pages

[PumpingAus]

Here is a 9 month transition photo.

Very feminine! Can't imagine the progress you will have ahead of you in that regard, it's still early days now and you're looking great already!

I hope you find some kind of peace within yourself with the family stuff, because they're never going to change sadly. Good luck with it all.

[straightma1e]

The personal life issues are hard. . . . Still haven’t seen my kids it’s been 16 weeks and I look so different then when I saw them last it’s gonna be a shock to them.

This part is an interesting part of all this. With the court eval showing the mental complications you're enduring it may be an inroad to getting reconnected with your children. I'm sure your soon to be ex wife is quite upset by the choice you have made. But with the eval results showing your side and that you aren't a real threat to your childrens well being may force the court into granting visitation in the end. I expect the wife has influenced them against you but it is possible you'll get to explain your side and reasons for the change. At least you showing them that no matter how you present yourself you still have a deep love for them. They'll make their choice and it is my hope they will allow you to reconnect by understanding the mental issues you face. Wives can come and go but your children who came from you are there forever. Hopefully they will understand.

[NuderThanNude]

Wives can come and go but your children who came from you are there forever. Hopefully they will understand.

Especially this generation of children who are never the gender they were born.

[rbm 75]

stacie how are you making out you getting surgery soon

[Valcore220]

Hi All,

A couple of recent photos those are not padded bras btw my endo added progesterone 100mg at night which has helped a lot with the crying (thank a god). It’s been 6 months since I have seen my kids in person I have gotten video calls with them I am required to present androgynous in the video so no make up or women’s cloths or talk about being trans or even mentions my name. Which honestly is more annoying because it requires me to change and the expense of removing and reapplying my makeup. I doubt the kids care about the gender stuff when it’s easy to just say their dad likes those cloths and wearing makeup and that’s ok.

The psych eval found me to not be a danger to myself or anyone no surprise there. I was depressed, had anxiety, ADHD, PTSD, Gender Dysphoria, I was also diagnosed with schizo type personality disorder. Which basically means I suffer from social anxiety and increased paranoia. Also I was officially diagnosed with autism.

Can’t remember if I posted about that. It’s been a challenging time but my transition is going well I am very happy about its progress. My surgery consult was a shit show I drove to my surgeon in Nashville it was an 8 hour drive and I verified the Friday before that everything was approved with both the VA and the surgeons office. I confirmed it in writing and printed it out. I arrived Sunday night and stayed in a hotel making sure to kept the receipt as I would be reimbursed by the VA. I arrived about an hour early as I over estimated in my excitement how long it would take to shave my body and apply makeup and navigate traffic. 5 mins before my appointment the nurse informed that my approval had been cancelled. She was on the phone with the VA trying to figure out what was going on and to get it authorized. They spent till 2 pm as did I and my VA primary care doctor as well, trying to get this approved because it was well documented as a medical necessity. Come to find out, it was pulled do to president Trumps Executive order on March 17th and the day of my consult was March 31st. So I had to drive home with no consult and I was not reimbursed for my hotel or travel. I also have to start my care in seeking a solution to the pain I’m having when I pee from scratch. Likely the same solution but since I’m trans the VA won’t help me. Can’t remember if I’ve mentioned that but I do have a bladder spasm that feels like an orgasm after I’m done going pee it can last from 15 second to upwards of three mins and it is very intense. I’ve been having them since the urethral reroute they just thought they would go away eventually. They have put me back on them but it has only dulled the pain. It can be very embarrassing in a public restroom specially with the bathroom thing being a political hot topic.

A few days after I returned I was roofied while out and woke up 24 hours later not knowing I was missing a day and the first thing I did in my confusion, was call my only family member that hasn’t abandoned me. While I was talking to her, she put together what happened told me I was raped then I started convulsing and she talked me into calling 911. I don’t remember much of the evening but basically I was roofied injected with meth and gang raped by at least 3 men. The hospital didn’t treat me or give me any antibiotics as is required. I did have a rape kit done thankfully by the local women’s group.

A few days later on my way back from the VA after getting my first STI check, I pulled over to cry and was sitting behind a cybertruck in the corner of the lot away from anyone. I noticed movement out of the corner of my eye and a lady with two kids was approaching the vehicle. So I asked if that was her truck and she said yes along with some not nice words about me being a T-slur. I apologized and said I don’t want a problem in front of your kids I’m leaving and drove away. Later I wound up on infowars with the infamous Alex Jones doing his usual bigoted rant against trans women. A nice full 24 mins long and of course on Twitter as well with about 400K views and some very creative death threats many seemingly obsessed with my nonexistent genitals and creative ways to violently destroy them. Jokes on them I already beat them to it hahaha.

I will tell you all a lot of this has made me laugh in some ways much has hurt my feelings but as I’ve had some time to deconstruct their bigotry and nonsense I’m getting to a point where I can just shake my head and laugh. This bigoted obsession over trans peoples genitals is insane. If you want to be entertained by made up story filled with bigotry here is the link. (Warning I do get Doxed in here and have been attacked as a result I have taken measure to prevent that in the future)

https://www.infowars.com/posts/exclusiv ... cybertruck

I now consider myself an atheist even though I attend a church but that’s for community. I guess I’m spiritual in a sense…. There in my personal opinion is something out there I just don’t know what. I would like to believe there is something after our physical bodies die I just don’t know what.

I’m sticking with brown for my hair color right now and yes I really want mid back length but this is the longest I’ve ever had it and so far it’s fun. I’ve been working on my voice and I have been able to sing with the 1st altos in the church choir. Using my phone app I’m solidly in the androgynous range and I often stay in the female range. I just need to work on the end of my sentences as women tend to go up with their voice and men pitch down.

I haven’t gotten my cup size measured since December but I would imagine that has changed. However I have lost a lot of weight. I’m down to 146 lbs right now I believe when I started posting I was around 200lbs. Back in December I was closer to 180lbs.

I love love love practicing my makeup and it feels so good to wear it out. Dresses are definitely my thing besides what girl doesn’t like to spin at least once. I purchased my first pair of heels a few weeks ago and I’m totally a shoe girl now just need a bigger budget.

Been trying to find a part time job but that has proven a little difficult as a very open trans woman. First of all I’m listed as female on all my documents except my Social Security card (thanks Trump) I have noticed I don’t get called back after the in person interview despite my 2 bachelors degrees, honorable military service and 15 years work experience, even lowe’s wouldn’t call me back for a part time job watering plants. The other issue is companies that require you verify your ID to apply can’t seem to verify me. Even when I provide my government issued drivers license full social legal address with a utility bill in my legal name and a biometric scan of my face. All in my now legal Stacy…. It is a very real struggle to be trans. So I’m considering creating an onlyfans at this point because my options for income seem to be very limited.

[Valcore220]

i am also bi cd and have 44c boobs from hormones i go by regina on other cd and trans pages

Honey it seems very clear to me that you’re trans not a CD. I just read my old posts and it was fascinating to see my own progression over this last year. I was born a trans woman and I’ve always been this way. I just needed to unlearn the hateful stereotypes.

[rbm 75]

nice to hear from you any chance you are going to get your final surgery
so sorry to here all your problems
when i renewed my pass port there was a spot for other i checked m , it has since been removed
i also did progesterin as well as spiro and estrogen valerate for 12 years
as i said before at 11 i knew iwanted to be trans

twice i tried a self penectomy both the fixed it wish i had got rid of it totally still would love to get srs but too old and new wife would divorce me
still wear bras and panties daily still 44c boobs
may i ask how big are you now
i was taking half max dose of each still take finasteride for pee issues

[rbm 75]

hi stacy me again
both times i tried it was q so you know my fem name is regina
thefirst time i treied it was with a razor blade only circled it next time idid the same thing except that time witha knife should have just sliced thru

[rbm 75]

me again would you be interested in doing phone so we dont have to keep typing

[Valcore220]

I need to get measured again as I do believe I’ve gotten bigger maybe getting close to a C cup or solidly but it’s hard with trans boobs because our tend to sit more to the side when not wearing a bra due to the rib cage typically being slightly wider then cis women.

Message me and I’ll give you my direct contact information that way we can talk more directly.

Honestly I’m really an open book as anyone is more than welcome to ask me questions on this topic or any trans related topic. If you are genuinely curious and just want to learn you are welcome to ask and I will give you my honest opinion/best knowledge on the subject or personal experience and I’ll try to clarify from what view I’m sharing so you know if it’s scientific fact or Stacy opinion. This is a place to learn and share freely without judgement.