A few more "personal" observations...
Toilets - Using a urinal is easier. Less self confidence issues since I don't have to undo belts any more. Sitting down still requires twisting my package to rest my balls on the seat since they still would hang in the water in most toilets. The twist is much easier now though. I suspect that if the water was low enough and I just let this hang I wouldn't have to worry about #2 hitting the back of my balls any more.
Dripping - It didn't matter how much I shook it after peeing when I was huge. There was always way more than a few drops that would be in my underwear. Tolerable at home by stuffing toilet paper in my underwear. Annoying when away since there's no TP by urinals. I still have the issue but it's significantly reduced. No more shaking it at urinals so much that other think I'm playing with myself.
Perspective - My cock "looks" bigger now. I know it's not, but it's a welcome view for me mentally.
The Downer (but I'm happy to finally see it) - I'm realizing that my ball size FUN has been tied to cock size SELF CONFIDENCE ISSUES. I kept having fun but didn't realize for 20 years it's not a package deal (
) and what I've been doing has been filling two different mental needs. I still WANT to have ball size fun, and KNOW that I shouldn't have cock size self confidence concerns. Everyone's journey is different but it took an insane 3.5 year SL experiment after saline adds since 2003 for me to see there's more to it.
Sample Size of One - Now that I've had/felt/removed hydrocele fluid, I suspect that I might have a hydrocele on the left side of my shaft. In past posts I've mentioned that the mass on the left side of my shaft can be squeezed to move toward the tip or base. It's soft and extremely fun to have a 8.5" don't when I want, or a 7" shaft if I push it back. It acts like the definition of a communicating hydrocele but the two parts of the body it can communicate between are contained in my shaft. When I squeeze the fluid from end to end to the other I can feel the fluid moving like it's going through a narrow opening between the two areas. If what I suspect is true, it would mean the irritation from how I did SL over 3 years gave me two separate hydrocele masses. I have no idea how to repeat it but its a potential risk (or reward) of Surgilube.
The Bedroom - The jury is still out. No play since I removed the fluid, but my wife was intrigued when I told her on Sunday that 2.5 pounds of my balls was removed. "Let's see what you're talking about tomorrow" was said happily right before a week of play time was taken off the table (her choice, not mine). Any reaction I can imagine is generally positive with a solid chance she'll ask if more could be removed from my balls. I will if she asks, but will counter with, "is it OK if I have giant balls occasionally in the future if we talk about it first?". There's also a small chance she may ask if I can perform the same reduction in my shaft but the answer will be "no". I like what I've got there and it's not causing social issues. I still don't know if our renewed playtime in the last nine months is her enjoying the size, or her tolerating it because of how solid the rest of our relationship is (very good). Just sharing this part so others can see the ever changing relationship issues this hobby can bring.
